Abulia

ABULIA is a state in which an individual seems to have lost will or motivation.

Abulia is not a separate condition; rather, it is a symptom associated with various forms of brain injury. It may occur in association with a variety of conditions, including stroke, brain tumor, traumatic brain damage, bleeding into the brain, and exposure to toxic substances.

Past

It's a beautiful thing that we can learn, and create memories. It can also work against us of course; one of the ways being bias. As we all walk around, we probably don't think about it, but we walk around thinking of ourselves as our own person. We each have our own unique past, upbringing that that has played a part into who we are today, who we were, and who we will be. However, it's always possible that when we meet someone, this has been all dashed to pieces. We've all been through this at one point or another, reminding someone of someone else, or meeting someone that reminds you of someone from your own past. Maybe someone special. Someone you didn't like. Someone you were once close to. Someone you once loved.

This little tidbit that we all know was basically brought on because I'm experiencing it and I can't seem to get over how blatantly biased I am. I remind someone of somebody else and I met someone who reminds me of someone else. I try my best to meet everyone with a clean slate, because people are full of surprises but, this one is...just...so prominent. :| I feel like I'm not being fair to the person at all and I can't help it. Not for a lack of trying though. Only remedy is to get to know them better, so I guess I'll just get to that. Meanwhile, here's a little sketch that I am actually rather fond of for once:

This actually turned out the way I envisioned within my mind pretty well, hopefully it remains that way as I gradually work my way through painting it. Like many people, characters may be based off ourselves or people we know, or have known. In this case, the man resembles someone I once knew. I didn't realize it at first but I now I see it the subtle resemblance. He's been floating around in my head for a little while and I'm still struggling to come up with a name for him. Perhaps Leonard, or Armand, or...most like Mason. But we'll see.

10.09.10

I went around walking in Pasadena the past weekend. It was a very short-lived walk. The shorts are so awesome, that is all I can say, I can fit everything I need and then some in my pockets. Walking around purse-less is a beautiful feeling. Life is weird, and the weather is even stranger.

Today, I got up and drove to school at 8AM only to happen upon one lone classmate. Who aptly replied at my presence: "You know class was cancelled today, right? I'm just here to do homework." Yeah, I totally forgot. skfd;agsddlk;lk Not complaining though!

Random thought of the day: Everything we create ultimately tries to imitate life. Open to interpretation, I myself, am not so sure what it means anymore. It's nice to remember these random things that come to mind once in a while, as more often than not, I find myself with nothing to say. Worrisome.

10.06.10

I like the way this came out, though I'm pretty sure if the pants weren't a mint color, I wouldn't like it as much. The mint makes it.

10.05.10

Hrmmm, weather's been a tad ridiculous lately, the end of summer draws near and as if to make it's exit a brilliant memory the temperature shoots up to three digits, then somehow cools down and rains. Hence the happy fall wear above, then...well, you'll see over the other posts, the weather begins to warm up again to a summer level. I've been into these neutral/pastel-y colors lately.

I've been doodling a lot more, which is good. But the bad side is that I've really been doodling more only to avoid math hw. Ah, joy of procrastination. Gotta try to scan some of those in. And paint. Must paint paint paint while the ideas are fresh in my head.

I've also really been a bum lately. Couldn't care enough to put some effort into how I dress, I guess that what two math classes and a life drawing class will do to you.