08.25.11

Life is not the easiest right now. It's amazing to think that only such a short amount of time has gone by. A measly two-months, yet it feels so much longer and from the moment I wake, I am always so, so very tired. I think that I'll just have to surrender myself to the fact that matter how little I do or how much I do, I will always be tired. Though, in the past few weeks, it's good to know that I at least have quite a valid reason to be tired.

But also to remind myself that not all is negative, I drew myself a little reminder of the good times I've shared and am experiencing. It's a little awkward, because that is sort of intended as a self-portrait and I still despise self-portraits...but...oh well. Plus, it doesn't really look like me all that much. Oops.

06.16.11

Meep. Wearing these pleather pants gets me a lot of touching. I guess leather and pleather just do that to people. I went to the premiere of Green Lantern and was horribly disappointed. :<

06.14.11

Ah, ouch. It's been a while since I've done one of these. Wore this last day of class. Spring semester 2011 comes to an end.

I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.

- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Person of circumstance and chance, to always be the odd man out.

05.10.11

Someone asked me how I'd describe my style yesterday. '_' It was a very odd moment for me. I'd never really considered to think about it. I feel like I just dress funny sometimes, that's all. But apparently I dress like Asian women do in the 80's? And specifically, Asian women....?

And this doodle is really, really crappy. The line work came easy, but the COLORS. Well, you can see for yourself....

chlorophyll

I tried chlorophyll extract from alfalfas. Yes, as in chlorophyll that you probably remember from Biology 101 covering photosynthesis.

It didn't taste like anything much really.

Spring Break NY

_{It was an odd trip. Full of fail on a daily basis too. I felt so tiny yet so gargantuan there; tiny when we were walking the streets outside with the building blocking out the sky, then gargantuan as I stepped into the mentioned buildings and everything inside, was tiny. Weird.}

4_08_11

Met two Jerry's today.

Ananda

a·nan·da

 

[ah-nuhn-duh]

–noun Hinduism .

perfect bliss.

Compare Sat-cit-ananda.

Origin:
< Sanskrit ānanda- joy, happiness

Looking like an Artist?

I think this is most possibly my new favorite old lady outfit ever. Aw yeah.

(And apparently I look like an artist, as a classmate told me. '_' Whatever that means, I'll take it as a compliment. An old lady artist, maybe? Mmm.)

And why yes, I do hold my umbrella that awkwardly in a complete vertical position sometimes.

monster

“Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.”

—	Friedrich Nietzsche

Fail Day

Was going to meet up with a friend to hang out. We failed in multiple ways.

One, it rained.

Two, the new plaza we visited did not nearly have enough stores open.

Three, I ended getting Tea Station confused with TeaZone (because all the goddamn drink places sound the same anyhow. >:| ) and drove there instead.

Four, we ended up at neither TeaStation or TeaZone but Tapioca Express.

Five, we went with the intention of ordering hot drinks because it was damn cold.

Six, we both failed in acquiring hot drinks. And the seats we plastic and faintly reminiscent of spoons, hence the illustration. Buh.

It was enjoyable all the same. Even though we mightily fail.

Aubade

aubade n. [OH-bahd]

- a song or poem greeting the dawn
- a poem or song of or about lovers separating at dawn
- a morning love song
- musical announcement of the dawn


Etymology:

French, from Old French albade, from Old Provençal albada, from alba, dawn, aubade, from Latin, feminine of albus, white; see albho- in Indo-European roots.

Usage:

Isn't this example of an aubade by Kenneth Patchen beautiful?

“As We Are So Wonderfully Done with Each Other”

As we are so wonderfully done with each other
We can walk into our separate sleep
On floors of music where the milkwhite cloak of childhood lies

O my lady, my fairest dear, my sweetest, loveliest one
Your lips have splashed my dull house with the speech of flowers
My hands are hallowed where they touched over your
soft curving.

It is good to be weary from that brilliant work
It is being God to feel your breathing under me

A waterglass on the bureau fills with morning . . .
Don’t let anyone in to wake us.

02.24.11

My stuff just keeps getting simpler, lazy gradient ftw. Bright red sweater and vtg leather pants. My professor took one look at me and said, "Jim Morrison pants."

02.16.11

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02.11.11

Yeahh. This is more than a week-old due to scanner issues and then me forgetting due to scanner issues. Bluuuue. Blue.

No scars for happiness

"It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace."

Chuck Palahniuk

This Tie

First image is from 2008/9. The second is my remake of it. I took inspiration from a collection of anime artists (there are any specific ones exactly that I looked at...) that have this sort of...very clean, simple style. The theme that I picked up on, is this sort of emphasis on color, planes, and graphic shapes.

I think I over did the shading and everything though. It's still not as simple as I'd like it to be. But it's still a confusing, painful yet fun experience all the same. :)

minty landscape

A quick speedpaint today. Thinking about expanding it and making the canvas wider, painting more huge clouds, and perhaps adding some sort of flying beast(s) in the sky. We'll see.

• The Count of Monte Cristo /"Gankutsu-ô"/2004/tv series
• Naoki Urasawa's Monster
• Summer Wars
• The Borrower Arietty
• 5 Centimeters Per Second
• Only Yesterday
• Paprika
• Perfect Blue
• Princess Mononoke
• Howl's Moving Castle
• Ponyo
• Whisper of the Heart
• Ghost in the Shell (?)
• Ergo Proxy
• Panda and the Magic Serpent (1958)

1. The Illusionist (2010)
2. Mary and Max
3. The Nightmare Before Christmas
4. How to Train Your Dragon
5. The Prince of Egypt
6. Nemo
7. Persepolis
8. Fantasia
9. The Hunchback of Notre Dame
10. Watership Down
11. Mulan
12. Hercules
13. The Princess and the Cobbler/ The Thief and the Cobbler 1993
14. James and the Giant Peach

02.07.11

Oh man, I wore a skirt today. As in casually. And kinda liked it! Super comfortable. I think I saw another woman in her late 50's in a similar outfit. So not surprised.

pleather, man.

I felt so badass. Got me some faux leather pants. Unintended but what the hey, I'll wear them. Coat is a hand-me-down.

Awkward Stance

It was kind of an awkward fit. Hence the awkward picture. If only I had cool red hair to go with it.

dreams.

All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible.

cute corgi's

watercolor

These are pretty small. Eugh, and they've also scanned horribly. This is where I realize I am horribly out of practice when it comes to watercolor (really any traditional medium). Then again, I was never really too skilled with it from the beginning. Individually each should have taken maybe an hour and a half tops. But I think they both took me a good few hours since I was being all careful and slow and distracted and being sucky. I do like how the colors came out though. Thinking about framing these and selling them cheap. Maybe $5 a pop? We'll see, once I find suitable frames.

"I am moving to the ocean," she declared one day.

I looked at her, and considered her odd choice of words. "Which beach are you moving to?" She looked at me as if I were the odd choice of words.

"Not beach. The ocean."

last of 2010

My last efforts at the end of 2010. This is one of the years that I am glad to see is over. It wasn't a horrible year, but there have been many disappointments (especially in myself), but there have also been many improvements. Things have balanced out in their own way I suppose. I spent New Year's Eve at the mall (whut? Lame!!! I know). However it was with some old friends and some newer and all in all, I haven't been to the mall in ages and ages and it actually turned out alright. There were a lot of laughs shared. :) Not too much shopping done but who cares? Still, glad to see 2011 here and the things that'll come! :)

2011

:) 2011, here we come.